As I’m getting my insides rearranged by this 3-pound “head of cabbage” (that’s how my weekly update describes her size), the strangest thought crossed my mind…
How did Mary feel when she felt baby kicks from Jesus?
I actually had this thought around Easter, but since then I’ve pondered on it a little more.
First of all, she didn’t get the normal human experience of conceiving a baby. But she still went through the normal human experience of pregnancy – hormone changes, body changes, emotional changes. So, how did she feel when she felt those first tickles of baby moving around inside her?
I can only try to imagine the toll that cultural isolation had on her – with or without preggo mood swings. But I can also imagine that once those baby tickles became more regular throughout the months, that she’d have a sense of peace and confidence regarding her position. I mean, if ever there was someone who got to have physical evidence of their promise coming to pass on a daily basis, it was Mary. (Sarah would fall into that category, as would Hannah).
The thought I had at Easter was more of what kind of memories did Mary hold on to when Jesus was being crucified. Did the thought of that little baby kicking inside her and making her belly change shapes come back to her on that day or on the days after?
I have been told by mothers before me that you never forget those first memories of your baby moving around on the inside, and now I believe them (even if her favorite place to play is that nerve on my left hip that makes my leg tingle)!